I wish things were different regarding the Lake Front Property. But, there is no going back now.
This being the second beautiful day for Lake Front Property use in the year 2021. I could have had a party, invited all my friends and family. But, that isn’t possible now.
Funny how things work out. How you confirm beliefs and attitudes that have simmer below the surface for decades. How brothers won’t support you yet they demand you support them, rubbing you out for their own pleasure and victory.
I muse about it, I muse too much about it. Ugh.
It could have been different. But, I wanted to play safe, playing by ethical rules, trying to find a compromise. But that couldn’t be achieved. So I bailed out. Much to the judgement of the Golden One. I should have been the prick, been the ass hole, told others to fuck off, ignored their needs or wants or desires for my own pleasure. But, I’m not that way. Ugh. So I lose out. I guess I choose this path. Ugh. It is what it is. Ugh. Beautiful days like this make it hard. Ugh.