I have been ‘neutral’ in the last few days, meaning I have not had any swings into the void of feeling defeated by the family nor have I swung into feelings of confidence like I can take on the world. It is strange. Maybe I have finally walked past the hurt of the recent events. If so, the landscape ahead seems flat.
I started taking the Bupropion HCL SR 150 MG tablet again. After looking at this page it appears Bupripion is a generic of Wellburtin SR. This could be the source of my neutrality.
According to the above page, one of the side effects of Bupropion is “weight loss”. Oh please, bring that on. I seriously need to loose weight. If this helps control my appetite then I will be forever thankful.
I stopped taking the Bupropion a long time ago because I did not feel that I needed it. And, the tablets are light green in color and kind of spooked me.
But, with the recent events I felt I needed a bigger boast than the daily Paroxetine HCL 30 MG tablet was giving me.
Besides the additional medication, I have employed another strategy to help in dealing with recent events. Whenever an obtrusive thought about the “last laugh” enters my head, I simply say, out loud, “STOP IT”. So far, that small action has enabled me to stop obsessing over the hurt and injustice of the Event. At times, I say “stop it” quite often to get the thought out of my head. Sometimes it returns immediately, other times a few hours can pass before it comes back.