Thoughts on the Last Laugh

I can understand his frustration and anger. So I can understand the need to have the “last laugh”. Reducing future inheritance because of a current decision I made to (hopefully) maintain and (hopefully) improve my mental state is the price I must pay.

As a straight financial transaction I can understand. The one brother took on more financial stress and future expense due to my decision. Reducing inheritance to cover his current financial burden is probably fair.

Although it’s a price I didn’t (but should have) expected to pay. As a straight financial transaction the brother was eager to take that load and will most likely benefit in the future as the market rises. The current expenses are just a cost of ownership he choose to enter into.

But, it probably isn’t fair on some sort of level to him. The man with the gold believes it isn’t fair and thus punishes me.

The “last laugh” comment haunts me. It drips with strings, attachments and exceptions and vindication I was unaware of yet should have been aware of since history proves this could and most likely would occur. The rear view mirror is telling me “I told you so” as I probably shouldn’t have entered into this ‘agreement’ when it first came up years ago. I went against my gut feeling at that time.

I wasn’t strong enough to stand back at that time. I thought attitudes and things would change. Some things did change and were blessed but the one thing I wanted changed is what I am punished for and will be laughed on that future date.

I wonder what the next ‘last laugh’ will be. If I make a misstep in the future will there be a last laugh judgement on me. If I violate an unspoken rule he has set will he laugh. Maybe I will be laughed at because of some belief I hold? It is just hard to walk through life not knowing what wrong you are doing until the laugh track is played.

A painting by John Mellencamp. Seen at the John Mellencamp's Paintings and Assemblages exhibit at the Thyen-Clark Cultural Center on Sunday, March 28, 2021. iPhone photo by Dave O.
A painting by John Mellencamp. Seen at the John Mellencamp’s Paintings and Assemblages exhibit at the Thyen-Clark Cultural Center on Sunday, March 28, 2021. iPhone photo by Dave O.

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