The Debate

It’s Friday. Yay.

I was out of bed by 4:30 am this morning. And immediately a debate as to if I should go to Planet Fitness or not started in my head. It was an honest debate. One side said that I shouldn’t go because my right hamstring is really, really sore and that I should crawl back into bed and rest. The other side said that I should go to the gym and work out on the elliptical instead of running on the treadmill and make it a light day.

As the debate swirled in my head I brushed my teeth, shaved and put in my contacts.

Finally, I said to those debating within my head … I said that it’s been only three days since I renewed the membership at an out-of-pocket expense of $89 and committed to $20 a month for the next 12 months … and I’m ready to take a day off after only three days!

I heard in my head … “you wimp”.

I quickly gathered my workout clothes and left. I was at the gym at 5:05 am. I walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I didn’t run. I spent 10 minutes on the elliptical and then did some of the weight machines. It was time well spent and I’m happy that I didn’t crawl back in bed.

I ran 4 miles on my first and second workout sessions at the gym. I suppose a light workout is ok for the third session.

As I was walking on the treadmill, I concluded that it’s important for me to get out of bed in and get to the gym in the mornings. I have noticed a shift in my attitude the last three days. I feel more productive at work as well.

I was also thinking that if I don’t have the motivation or energy to run or get in a sweaty workout on the weights, I could always tan as the gym offers free tanning with my $20 a month ‘black’ card membership. Cool. I could use a tan.

Trying To Climb Out

I’ve been in a deep funk as of late. It’s deep, depressing and dark.

It really started before the holidays, as I dread the holidays and all the imposed obligations and expectations I have a hard time measuring up to. The ownership change at work hasn’t helped either. As a result, I’ve been over eating like there is no tomorrow and I’m back to my heavy drinking.

Yesterday was a bad day for me. I could hardly concentrate at work, the code on the screen was blurry and melted together. I’m surprised the company’s web site is still working! I need to do something to get out of this funk as it is beginning to accept life in general.

The good news is that I have a plan to get out of this funk.

First … I renewed my membership at the local Planet Fitness. And I say renewed, but honestly, I really paid up the membership so I could get back on their treadmills and work out.

My last run was on Friday, January 8. I ran less than 3 miles. It was dark and cold outside. I had no energy. I had no motivation. I couldn’t even finish 3 miles. I was tired of the dark and the cold. I was tired that I couldn’t see where I was running and what I was running on.

I have thought of buying a treadmill. I see it as a way to be able to run indoors when it’s dark and cold outside. And now that winter has finally set in with 4 degree temperatures and snow and ice on the roads, a treadmill is a good option. Otherwise, I really couldn’t run outdoors. I guess I could if I was a real runner but the snow and ice and cold are barriers that can stop me from running outside.

My chosen treadmill would cost $1,500 from an online store. While the cost isn’t a real issue for me as I believed it to be an ‘investment’ and I know that I would use it for a long time. However, the cash isn’t readily available for a purchase as I need to take care of some other pressing issues that require the cash.

So, instead of buying a new treadmill for my own personal use, I thought I would get back my membership at Planet Fitness and ‘rent’ their treadmills and other fitness equipment. It seem like a practical idea since I can’t buy a new treadmill for myself and take care of these other pressing issues. I can do one or the other but not both. There just isn’t enough cash to do both.

I had let the credit card  expire that Planet Fitness charges the membership to. I thought the membership would then automatically expired as well.

Nope. I was still responsible for those monthly charges plus late fees and service charges. The total was $139. Ouch! Thankfully, the assistant manager waived some late fees and service charges to bring the total down to $89. I paid that with a credit card that hasn’t expired. They will draft the monthly fees straight from my checking account.

So, this morning I had my first Planet Fitness workout with my new membership. I ran 4 miles on their treadmill. It was a slow run. My average pace was about 10 minutes per mile. It was a very comfortable run, warm and it wasn’t dark.

Second … I renewed my subscription to offers tutorials on almost every geeky topic. And since I work as a media developer, their tutorials on photoshop, photography and web development can be really helpful. I feel stagnate on my  skills and want to keep them sharp and fresh. So, I’m working through a photoshop course right now and plan to work through other tutorials as well. I need to keep my skills sharp incase the new owners have different plans for me.

Well, that is about it on my efforts to climb out of this funk. The PF workout this morning has perked me up somewhat. Maybe things are not as dark and hopeless as I was believing just a few days ago.

Hope everyone has a great day!


First Week


At least I’m down a few pounds from last week. Although this is most likely a stabilization weight than actual weight loss. As, my eating hasn’t been great and my excess drinking is starting to take a hold again. So, I expected to gain some weight this week but happy that there was a small loss.

My running for the week totaled at 22.91 miles. That is the most I’ve run in one week for a very long time. Maybe the miles are balancing out the weight because my eating is out of control.

I’ve had a hard time dealing with some aspects of the ownership change at work. I can’t seem to shake it off. The ownership change is something I had no control or influence over. So, why do I beat myself up over it? It’s odd that I do that and I need to stop. I’ve given it a solid effort to stop obsessing over it this week because it’s starting to affect things at home and work. Thankfully, the running is helping me cope but I need to be stronger overall.

I need a new pair of running shoes. My Brooks Addiction 11 are quickly breaking down to the point where there is absolutely no cushioning left. Even with the insoles, there is no cushioning.  Last night’s 5 mile run was awfully hard on the feet and legs. My average pace for the 5 miles was 10:39. That is almost a minute slower than my faster pace. And, I know it was because I was going slow just to avoid the hard impact per stride.

I’m buying a new pair today!

Sunday Sunday

I stayed in bed until 10:30 am on Sunday morning (1/3). I was awake but stayed in bed for no reason. Although I was reading a new book and watching you tube videos. But, by 10:30, I was tired of laying in bed and decided to get out of bed.

Once I was out of bed, I thought it would be good to get in a long run. I didn’t run on Saturday (1/2) because I spent most of the day working outside since it was warm and sunny and I needed to be outside working.

I left the house about 11:30. My goal was to run 6.5 miles straight without walking and then complete 3 walk/run intervals afterwords.

The total distance was 8:35 miles. The total time was 1:24:29 for an average page of 10:21. The Nike+ app says I gained 418 feet in altitude and burned 1,057 calories.

The splits :

  • 1 mile : 9:46
  • 2 mile : 9:46
  • 3 mile : 9:58
  • 4 mile : 9:48
  • 5 mile : 9:57
  • 6 mile : 9:56
  • 7 mile : 11:16
  • 8 mile : 12:07

I finished the 6.5 miles without much difficulty. Although, by the end of the 6.5 miles I was beat and ready to go home. The day was covered with a thick grey overcast and there was a wind chill. A little sunshine would have helped. I was warm while running but when I began the walk/run intervals, I suddenly started to freeze. It was hard to pick up the running again even after a two-minute walk but my ego propelled me.

As I finished the 6.5 mile my roommate called and said he would like to run a lap around the neighborhood with me. The timing was perfect as I was about to pass by the house. I extended the walking break and meet him in front of the house and started the walk/run intervals. We ran 5 minutes, walked 2 minutes and then ran 5 more minutes. It was good to have a running partner for a mile. His 2016 resolution is to quite smoking and get back into shape. He finished the lap around the neighborhood and then went back home. I finished the third interval and I was totally wiped out and was happy to get back home too.

The 8.35 distance is the longest I’ve been out since I started running again. However, I might have gone too far. I was spent and frigid for the rest of the day and did nothing of significance.  Even a hot shower couldn’t warm me up. By late in the afternoon, I decided to crawl back in bed to get warm. I read the new book for a while and watched some you tube videos and took a quick nap. I was ok afterwards.

While I was running the 6.5 miles I decided that I needed a new pair of shoes. I thought the new insoles I bought last week would add some cushioning but they were not helping as the shoes still felt hard and flat. I vowed to myself to order a new pair when I finished the run. Of course, I didn’t. My feet didn’t hurt when I stopped running!


Welcome Twenty Sixteen

Welcome to 2016. Happy New Year.

When I awoke this morning the sun was bright and I felt a glimpse of hope and assurance and warmth. However, the grey overcast has rolled in and everything is cast of shadows of grey and cold.

Hopefully the sun and warmth will come back.

I ran 6.2 miles yesterday, on New Years Eve. My goal was to go for 5 miles but my ego wanted to finish out the year and month with a 10K. My total time was 1:01:00 for an average pace of 9:49. Not too bad for an overweight old man on a cold blustery New Years eve.

And, it is hard to image that on June 22, 2015, just over six months ago, I could hardly run for 90 seconds at a time. At that time, I couldn’t image running a 10K.

I was asked what are my resolutions for Twenty Sixteen. I thought I would list them here. Maybe on December 31, 2016 we can look back and see how successful I am in following through.

  • Write a short story.
  • Lose weight to the 155 pound goal
  • Run 2 mini marathons and maybe a third
  • Run in a staged event every month
  • Continue working on new drip paintings

That would pretty much conclude the list. I know it isn’t extensive but it’s good enough for me. Of course, I will continue to work on other things that could be put on the list.

  • Pay down the debt load … I paid off two loans this year (the boat and Jacob’s dental work but still have much more debt.
  • Keep a better attitude at work … I can’t pay down the debt if I don’t have a job so I better start watching my attitude and mouth before they show me the door.
  • Stay out of the crippling depression … which mingles its tentacles throughout my bad attitude at work.
  • Keep running and exercising, maybe going back to the gym for resistance training … exercise certainly does help the bad attitudes.
  • Maybe jump into a Zumba or Cross Fit class … that would be fun!
  • Brush my teeth every day (I do that anyways but just wanted to mention it)
  • Buy new running shoes.

Hopefully I will start Twenty Sixteen with a run. But, last night’s celebration is still with me. I suppose if I was a real runner I wouldn’t have indulged in last night’s celebration and would be reporting a new PR in a New Year’s Resolution Run and posting swag photos. I suppose that is why I’m not a real runner.

But, anyways, I sending new year wishes to everyone for a blessed, improving and progressing Twenty Sixteen.